Hoping to feel better...

So for the past week I feel like i've been kicked all over and then ran over with a truck! Being sick with a baby is no fun at all, especially when they protest their nap times and won't take a rest so mommy can rest too. 
This week Jacob and I made the long drive to West Vancouver to see a specialist I was referred to to help me deal with my post partum weight issues. Between being referred and actually getting the appointment, my doctor tested my thyroid just to see if maybe there was some correlation between my weight gain and it. Surprise, surprise, my results were "off the charts" and "rarely seen". So although I was seeing an "Internal specialist" doctor, we ended up talking about my thyroid problem and how severe it was almost the whole time. He says it's going to be about 2 months before i feel changes as my levels were so out of wack, and referred to myself as having a type of auto immune disease as the amount of anti bodies attacking my thyroid were so large. I started on the medication for this about 2 weeks ago, and ever since i feel WORSE than before! My joints still hurt, It's very difficult to pick up Jacob in the morning because of my wrists (the Dr. says i have tendinitis b/c of the thyroid) and i generally just feel crummy! My energy level is at an all time low, and im finding it hard to get out of my pj's and do things outside the house with Jacob. I hope these drugs start working soon because this is no fun...and neither is carrying all this extra weight on my hips! I go back to see the specialist in 3 weeks and I also get my thyroid tested again at that time too. Hopefully there will be some improvement and if not, that they can FIX ME!

Jacob is getting more precious and adorable by the day! It seems as though every day he learns how to do something new, and it's so fascinating to watch him explore his little world. He loves to take his soother out now and holler at me until i come look at him, he laughs and puts it back in. Like cat and mouse i suppose! He got a toy gumball machine for xmas that he's just recently figured out how to hit the lever and the balls come down and the lights and music play. Although he's not quite sure how to get the balls back in yet, im sure he will soon! Overall he's one of the happiest babies i've seen. It's such a far cry from 5 months ago when I thought God gave me a demon child who wouldn't stop crying! He loves to give kisses now and usually ends up just sucking on your face or chin! And be forewarned: he goes in fast and furious when you say "kisses!!"

Our little guy's bowels seem to be back to normal after taking a hiatus while we were in Victoria. Im pretty determined the jarred food we gave him bunged him up big time, and im sure the formula didn't help either, as the last 3 days it's been business as usual on his changetable! He's got a super sensitive system it appears, and we're still giving him his lactulose twice a day to help ease the process. I just hope we've seen the worst of it and we never have to go through what we did last month again! 

Im trying to decide when i'm going to breastfeed until right now...i know, i know. This coming from the girl who was so determined to NOT breastfeed! I go back to work in a little under 4 months and im trying to figure out whether i should wean 100%, or keep a morning and night time feed until he's actually 12 months. Part of me is a bit scared to wean completely because of his intollerance with formula. The kid loves to drink it, but it sure don't come out smooth! Oh well, i've got a bit to ponder this situation i suppose!

Well, im bagged and I think it's time for bed! Jacobs been sleeping through the night again the last few nights, so here's hoping he does it again tonight!